HELLO EVERYONE, Scott Kiloby here
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However, I am open to answering questions on here if those types of communications don't work for you.
I wanted to start off by saying thank you to Richard for his ongoing contribution to the world of realization, nonduality, presence (whatever term you like). Richard's open heart and willingness to welcome so many different writers, teachers, and others in this area is very sweet and says a lot about his character.
Here is a brief rundown of the way I point. First and foremost, for me, non-conceptual awareness (or what I call space) is the key to realization. It's the most direct "path" and it bypasses a lot of conceptual stuff that gets people "hung up." However, and this is a big however, you will also often hear me say that appearances (thoughts, emotions, states, sensations, experiences, people, etc) are not separate from awareness itself. This inseparability, for me, is important also because I spent some time with a very quiet mind, in a void. Although it might sound nice, and it was, it was also detached and less than fully alive. For me, nonduality is very much about life happening now and enjoying every aspect of that. It's not just about reaching a state of no-thought and never thinking again. Although that may sound paradoxical, it really isn't. And I think if you listen to what I have to share it may resonate. Maybe not...we'll see. With that in mind, you will hear me share a lot from Living Realization. That site is a www.livingrealization.com. This way of pointing that I've developed has really resonated with people. Also, my site is www.kiloby.com. There is a lot of content there along with audio dialogues with lots of teachers. Enjoy.
RECOGNIZING PRESENT AWARENESS
Right now, recognize present awareness. Don't move to manipulate any appearance within awareness. See that the appearance is not separate from awareness.
This is the main pointer in Living Realization. It sums up the whole text. There are many other pointers to come, but if you can stick with the simple pointer above, that is all that is needed.
A. A Few Points About Pointers
The words we use to speak about present awareness are only pointers. There is a tendency to “hook into” the concepts, comparing them to other concepts you have heard, deciding which concepts sound the best, and then mistaking the concepts for that to which they are pointing. This is a huge trap. Therefore, before we begin pointing, let’s discuss a few points about pointers so that you don’t fall into the trap of believing that when we use the word “awareness” we are talking about a concept.
To speak of present awareness as if it is something totally separate from that which appears within awareness is delusion. It comes straight from our language only. Reality is ‘non-dual,’ meaning “not two.” To speak within the confines of dualistic language about the non-dual nature of reality is to divide life into ideas that get their meaning only in relation to other ideas. See the challenge in the use of concepts? Actual awareness itself is not a concept. The word “awareness” is a concept. Concepts come from our dualistic language. The moment we identify “awareness” conceptually, we define it in relation to some other concept—“appearances.”
One could say, “It’s all awareness,” or “all there is, is Oneness.” One could also say that there is no way to rest as or recognize awareness because that implies a person who is separate from awareness and who must do something to realize awareness. That implies duality! Fair enough. For some, those pointers may be all that is needed. Perhaps just hearing those very clear pointers is enough to see through the illusion of separation, to see that present awareness is already what you are and there is no way to reach what already is. How can you reach what is simply awake and present right now? It’s impossible.
There are many clear pointers to this seeing in various teachings and traditions. Perhaps there is some intellectual understanding of the pointers. Yet, if you are reading this now, it is safe to assume that the direct, experiential knowing of that to which the words are pointing remains less than fully recognized. That’s ok. Don’t make your “non-recognition” into a problem. Be gentle with yourself. Read on.
It would be great if we could just throw around a few words or metaphors that would instantly reveal the direct experience of that to which the words are pointing. In some cases, one clear pointer is all that is needed.
In most cases, however, a few words won’t do. It’s not that the words are wrong, incorrect, or unclear. It’s that they are words. Concepts. Ideas. Thoughts. Again, thought operates only within our dualistic language. It creates the appearance of separation between apparent objects where there is no real separation. It creates a world of conceptual opposites in which one thing exists only in relation to its opposite. To thought, the concept of “nothing” exists only in relation to another concept called “something” or “everything.” Similarly, to thought there is no subject without object, no black without white, no wrong without right, no clear without unclear, no me without you, no us without them, no non-duality without duality, no awareness without appearances, no Christian without Muslim, no life without death—the list goes on. Each of those words gets its identity at least in part from what it is not. To the thinking mind, “black” is black partly because of what it is not—“white.” “Nothing” only has meaning within our language because of its relationship to “thing.” The sense that words are pointing to clearly distinct, separate objects is a product of thought. Thought is a wonderful tool. It is not to be denied or suppressed in any way. But Living Realization is pointing to seeing that thought is creating the appearance of a separation that is not ultimately real. The most direct way to see that is to simply recognize present awareness as your real identity and notice that all appearances are inseparable from awareness. Thinking about awareness and thinking about thinking won’t help much.
A good indication that present awareness has not been recognized as your real identity is the degree to which you believe that some dualistic idea is awareness. Remember, awareness is not any idea. Ideas are appearances of awareness. Confused? Then simply look back at the entire page you just read. None of the ideas presented here are awareness. Each one of these words—and every other word you can think of—comes from within a finite set of symbols that we call language. Every symbol gets its meaning from its relationship to other symbols. Therefore, no symbol here or anywhere else ever expresses non-dual awareness or non-separation.
B. Recognizing Present Awareness
Keep it simple and let all the ideas above drop away for one moment. Just recognize what is timelessly awake and looking. Forget everything that has been said in this text thus far. Just drop it all and look. What is looking is what you are. That IS awareness! Awareness is more akin to the white page on which this text appears than any pointer that appears on it. Now drop that pointer too! Present awareness is so immediately here and present in all situations that it seems to get overlooked as we focus on ideas appearing within it and trying to describe it. Actual awareness is the space within which all these pointers appear and disappear—including the pointer right here and all pointers to come.
In Living Realization, we define “appearances” as anything that moves or changes, has a beginning and end, or that comes and goes within awareness. This includes thoughts, emotions, sensations, states, objects, and experiences. They come and go. In Living Realization, we invite you to discover what never changes or moves and is simply awake right now to what is changing and moving. That IS actual awareness. These words are moving and changing. They are coming and going, constantly being replaced by other words in this text. None of these words are awareness. Awareness is the space that allows each one of these words to appear and disappear effortlessly. Now maybe you can relax and let every word that appears in the remainder of this text to float on by. There is nothing to remember, nothing to hold onto, and nothing to grasp intellectually.
Still confused? Confusion comes from believing that there is some idea you have to grasp before recognizing awareness. But awareness is simply awake. That is all! It is the alert presence that is looking right now. Don’t refer back to the last sentence or paragraph or to some other page in this text. Awareness is just space. No word has ever grasped space or will ever grasp space. No word will truly clarify that which is looking at all words. Simply feel into or fall back into the space that is simply awake in the here and now, the space that is inseparable from this moment. There is a vast awake space within which this moment appears. That IS awareness.
Now drop even the word “awareness” and any other pointer you have read in another teaching. Simply rest here. Just be. Take a moment for that.
What you are in the most basic sense is the simple sense of present awareness before you look to any labels appearing within awareness. Awareness is the actual, vast, basic, no-boundary, non-conceptual space from, in, and through which all appearances (including all labels) seamlessly come and go.
Awareness is timeless, spacious, empty, formless, and
open. It knows no boundaries. It knows no divisions. Only
concepts create boundaries and divisions.
Awareness is impersonal. It is not “your” awareness. The concept of ownership arises only through thinking. The “I” thought itself is an appearance of awareness. Any sensation(s) in the body that give the sense that awareness is located in your body (either in your head, or chest, or some other part) is happening in awareness. It is not awareness itself. It is not what sees the sensation. Actual awareness—that which is aware of the sensation—has no boundary and cannot be proven to be limited to an individual body.
If a thought arises as you are recognizing present awareness as the simple awake space that is present, instead of answering the thought or adding more thoughts to it, simply allow that thought to be exactly as it is. Don’t manipulate it in any way. Let it come to rest in awareness. Thought is temporary. Its very nature is to come and go very quickly. As soon as a thought disappears, there is awareness. If we don’t move to stop thought, analyze it, understand it, add to it, or do anything with it, then thought naturally resolves itself back into the space of present awareness from which it came. Simply notice the space that is left as a thought comes to rest. Yet if another thought appears after the previous thought, let that thought be as it is. In letting thought be just as it is, and not adding energy to it by analyzing or doing anything to it, it starts to lose its energy. To just “be” or recognize awareness does not mean to permanently end thinking. Dropping thought may be helpful in the beginning to recognize present awareness. But as we rest, we see that thought has its own energy and that, if we do not move to do anything with it, it comes to rest naturally in awareness. It is only when we move to manipulate thought, believing that we have some control over it, that it continues to have power over us. All thought arises from awareness and falls back into it. In recognizing awareness as our real identity, we see that awareness has no agenda to do anything with thought, including drop it. The most we can do is simply notice the naturally-occurring appearance and disappearance of thought. As we see that there is no longer a need to manipulate thought in any way, it is no longer seen as a problem. It arises and falls gently, harmlessly, spontaneously, and involuntarily from awareness and naturally returns back to awareness. Remember, the point is not to stop thinking but rather to recognize present awareness, which is the space within which all thoughts appear and disappear.
Whenever anything appears (a thought, emotion, sensation, state, or experience), we simply notice that it is an appearance of awareness. It is not awareness itself. We then get a felt sense of the pure seeing of the appearance. This is not about focusing intensely on the appearance. It is more like letting the appearance remain unmolested, letting it arise and fall on its own, and noticing that what we are, in the truest sense, is that which is doing the noticing. Recognizing awareness just means allowing the pure seeing to recognize itself.
The pure seeing is not an appearance. We will not find seeing anywhere as a “thing.” Present awareness is the act of seeing itself. Think of “pure seeing” as a verb, rather than a noun or object. This is not about recognizing yourself as a person who is aware of the thing that is arising. See that even the thought “I” is an appearance within awareness. This is not about looking only from the eyes. The entire space within and without the body and mind is one awareness. This is an invitation to allow that awareness to recognize itself.
Pure seeing is the present, clear, empty, quiet, peaceful, awake space from which every appearance appears and into which it disappears. Seeing is always happening whether there are appearances being seen or not. Awareness is there during the day and even at night in formless sleep. It doesn’t come and go. Only appearances within awareness come and go. Awareness is that which sees every appearance that is seen but the seeing itself is not an appearance.
Recognizing awareness means allowing awareness to recognize itself rather than be focused on thoughts or other appearances happening in awareness. Yet if thoughts arise, those are simply allowed to fall back into the space of awareness very gently on their own. We don’t move to understand the thoughts that arise or add intellectual analysis to them. They are simply allowed to be in the space just as they are.
Recognizing awareness is more like the present recognition of being, rather than a doing. We are not recognizing awareness as a “doing” to reach a later point of awakening or enlightenment. We are recognizing awareness right here, right now. Recognizing awareness is an end in and of itself! We are recognizing that the pure, timeless seeing is what we are in the most basic sense, before any thought appears including thoughts about practicing presence or resting as awareness throughout the day.
In Living Realization, we prefer the phrase “recognizing present awareness” over other phrases such as “resting as awareness,” “being present,” “watching,” or “witnessing.” We are not engaging in a practice in time to reach a later point in which you recognize awareness. “Later” and “future” are ideas arising in present awareness. Whenever the thought arises, “I must practice presence,” “I must rest as awareness throughout the day,” or “I must be present more this week,” see those as ideas arising in present awareness itself. We are not inviting you to do something throughout the day or in the coming months. We can only relentlessly and compassionately point you to the fact that present awareness is presently what you are. This moment is the only portal to that seeing. If you want to interpret that as something to do in the coming months, in some attempt to reach a later point, that is your right. But be clear that the notion of time is a presently arising idea only. Therefore, the self that would make presence into a story of time is just a presently arising idea.
In recognizing awareness, we are not inviting you to identity as a separate witness to what is appearing. You are not a separate watcher or witness. The sense that there is a separate entity watching or witnessing is, itself, an idea or sense that appears within awareness. This entity may be experienced as a bodily sensation or a tension behind the eyes or in the head. Whatever it is, if it is a ‘thing,’ it is not awareness itself. Awareness is not any thing. It is the seeing itself. An appearance of awareness can never appear without awareness itself. Without awareness, the thought, “I’m the witness,” cannot and does not appear. Awareness is the screen on which all appearances appear and disappear. The awareness and the appearances of awareness are ‘not two.’ There is no actual boundary between the two, only a conceptual one.
But this is not about seeing or catching everything that arises and falls. Sometimes awareness sees thoughts, emotions, and other things that arise. Sometimes it doesn’t. We are inviting you to simply be and to notice that awareness naturally allows everything—every thought, emotion, state, and experience—to be just as it is. When something happens and it is not noticed, that ‘not-noticing’ is perfectly allowed. This is about relinquishing the desire to do or achieve something and to understand or analyze what is happening.
Recognizing awareness includes recognizing inner body awareness. We allow awareness to naturally recognize itself in the inner body. This is not an invitation to think of a body part as a separate thing but rather to feel into the awake, alive space within each body part. Each part of the body—from toe to head—is awareness. This is awareness being aware of itself.
In the sense of being a separate self, it does not feel as though the inner body is clear, empty, awake awareness. It feels more like a physical contraction supporting a time-bound, thought based story of “me.” By recognizing inner body awareness, there is a recognition that the inner body is like a bubble. There is clear, empty space within the body, even though the body appears to have a boundary around it. The space “inside” the body resonates at the same frequency as the space “outside” the body. The bubble analogy is good for getting a conceptual picture of what is being pointed to. But once we have the picture, we drop the pointer and feel into the direct experience of it.
If visual stimulation seems to get in the way, we can close our eyes. But the recognition of awareness is available with eyes closed or open. Awareness is not limited to the body. The invitation to recognize awareness is not an invitation to look only within the body. Notice that, in closing our eyes, the boundary between the body and what is “outside” the body is not as strong. With eyes closed, we can no longer see the boundary of skin that appears to separate the body from the rest of life. We may still feel sensations that give the sense that there is a body there. But notice that they are sensations appearing in awareness. Awareness is looking at the sensations. Therefore, the body is not what we are in the ultimate sense. It is appearing in what we are. And the appearance is not separate from awareness itself. In other words, only ideas create the appearance that there is a separation between something called “awareness” and something else called a “body.”
Just as there appear to be things “outside” the body/mind such as trees that are objects in awareness, there are also objects “inside” the body/mind such as thoughts, emotions, and sensations. All of these are objects appearing in the pure seeing itself. This allows us to see that the boundary between the body and its surroundings is essentially just conceptual. The conceptual labels “inside” and “outside” are appearances of awareness.
With eyes either open or closed, we sense that the space “inside” the body is the same space as the space “outside” the body. This is a doorway into seeing that awareness has no boundary. It is not personal to the body. There is only one space with no beginning and no end. As awareness identifies with or focuses on thoughts, emotions, the body, and other objects, the illusion of separation arises.
The invitation here is recognize awareness right now, not throughout the day or for the next few weeks. There is only ever right now. Days, weeks, months, and years are only ideas appearing within present awareness. Awareness is timeless. It is only available now.
If you find the mind arguing with the pointer “recognize awareness,” then drop that pointer and use “rest as awareness” or “be present.” If you believe a pointer is needed, find one that shows you that all pointers are just ideas appearing and disappearing in present awareness. Find one that takes you straight to the recognition of present awareness as your real identity in the here and now. Notice that the tendency to argue with concepts comes from the belief that awareness is a concept that has to be defined or defended. Although the word “awareness” is a concept, actual awareness is not. Recognizing actual awareness through direct experience goes a long way in no longer fighting with yourself or others over conceptual pointers and teachings and over notions of who is or who is not present, enlightened, or awakened, and what is true and not true, clear and not clear.
C. Ways of Recognizing Awareness
Center of the Room
Sit in the middle of a room in a chair that can rotate around in a circle. Start by looking at only one wall. Notice all the internal and external objects that appear as you look at that wall. There may be the appearance of external objects (colors, textures, lines, lamps, doors, pictures, etc). But notice that there really are no external objects until thought arises. Notice that thought is a so-called “internal object.” Without thoughts appearing internally, there are no independent objects appearing out there. Thought creates the notion that there are things existing independently out there. See that all appearances, whether internal or external, are appearing within a space. Notice that the space is what you are. This space (also called “awareness”) is the only thing that never moves or changes.
Test this out by rotating your chair to the next wall, then to the next wall, and then the next. As you face each wall, completely new appearances happen. New thoughts, which name new “objects” out there, such as “chair,” “picture,” and “door.” The only thing that remains unchanged is the space within which all of these appearances are viewed. That space is awareness. It is the only constant. All appearances come and go inseparably within that space.
For this exercise, we locate two objects (points) at least three feet apart in the room in which we are now sitting. These objects can be anything—a lamp, desk, plant, or light. Let’s call them object A and object B. Notice that the eyes can only focus on one object at a time. We go back and forth between A and B. We notice that we cannot see both objects at once with directed attention. We can only oscillate back and forth between the two objects. First A, then B, then back to A, then back to B.
We then stop focusing on one object at a time. Instead, we “pull back” and notice the awareness within the body and mind that knows the present moment directly. This space resonates at the same frequency as the actual space in the room. We notice that this present awareness is not focused on any particular object. It is simply aware of space itself. It is the space that holds the objects and allows them to simply be. This space is not focused on either object. It is not trying to name them or compare them. It is simply and gently awake to the objects.
This space that allows and holds both objects is pure, transparent seeing that is naturally empty, awake, and formless. It is not focused at all on any one thing in the room. It is the space in which all objects appear including the two objects A and B. If a thought arises that says, “I don’t get it” or “I don’t see it,” we just notice the thought and return to the simple spacious present awareness. Thought will never see what is being pointed to here. Thought can only think about or look at one object at a time.
Looking from the space
For this exercise, we first look in the mirror. We notice that there is a form staring back. In the reflection, we clearly see a physical form with eyes, a nose, a mouth, ears, and hair. In walking away from the mirror, however, we notice that only space is looking outward at the world. In that area where the reflection showed a physical form there is now only space looking outward. From the view looking outward behind the face, there is no form. There is no face. There are no eyes, nose, mouth, ears, or hair. There is only spacious awareness looking at the world.
What we took to be a solid separate form when looking in the mirror is really spacious awareness when looking at the world from the area behind the face. We notice that the entire world appears in that spacious awareness from which we are looking. We see that there is no division between that space and the world that is appearing in it. How can there be a boundary? Space is not a thing. Only things have boundaries.
Awareness “around” emotions
As emotions arise, no matter whether they are positive or negative, we notice the space around the emotion. We forget the mental labels we use to talk and think about emotions such as anger, sadness, grief, pain, loneliness, fear, anxiety, happiness, or any other label. When an emotion arises, we simply see that it is a raw energy form in the body. It has a beginning and an end. It has a shape.
We notice the mind’s tendency to label the raw energy or strategize or analyze it away. In noticing the thought that labels the energy or wants to strategize or analyze it, the thought is allowed to naturally die and awareness can return to noticing the raw energy form in the body.
When we say “notice” the emotion, we are saying allow awareness to become aware of itself around the emotion. Notice the actual space that holds the emotion. Notice that, although the mind may have an agenda to be rid of or strengthen the emotion, the actual space has no such agenda. It simply allows the emotion to be exactly as it is.
No matter where we go, what we do, or what sounds are arising, silence is permeating the universe. There is a quietness here that is overlooked in each moment as the mind searches for the next thought, the next state, or the next experience. This silence cannot be known by thinking about it. It can only be known through present awareness. Present awareness resonates at the same frequency as this permeating silence. There is silence “inside” the body and “outside” the body. It is one silence. That silence is a doorway to present awareness. It is revealing our true nature. We simply notice silence. We don’t notice silence throughout the day as a practice. We notice that silence is only here now. There is only present awareness. We notice that every sound arises out of the silence and falls back into it. We notice that there is no “we” separate from that silence. Even the sounds “I” and “we” arise from and fall back into that present silence.
In each of the experiments above, it may have looked like we were pointing to an awareness that is located in the body or in the mind, as if it is emanating out of your eyes. There is a tendency when reading non-dual pointers to believe that awareness has a location. This belief accompanies the belief that awareness is my awareness and that other people have their own “awarenesses.” Let’s look at this more closely.
Awareness is not a thing. It is not an object. Only objects appear to have location. Awareness is more like pure space. There is nowhere to locate space as being in one place but not another. The word “space” here is just a pointer. Let it point you to the realization that the fundamental essence of life is one undivided, purely empty, boundary-less space. There is no place where there is not space. Even where you see a form, as in a cup, the cup is none other than space. There is no way to pull the space within the cup out of the cup. There is no way to pull the cup out of the space in which it appears. The cup and the space are inseparable. So space is everywhere. And that isn’t really accurate. To say it is anywhere, nowhere, or everywhere is to give it a location.
This one undivided space has no location. Location appears when thought appears. In order to even contemplate the notion that awareness resides within the body and mind, there must be a subtle mental image or outline of a body and mind that appears as a concept. It’s often very subtle, more like an assumption, but it’s there. Just notice it when it appears. Notice that whatever sees that thought is actual, pure, spacious, non-locatable awareness. In noticing that thought, or any other thought that attempts to locate space as being only inside or outside something, it is realized that what is noticing is not a concept. That which is noticing is actual space. In simply resting there for one moment, completely free of thought, it is seen that space cannot be located and is not located anywhere exclusively. It is the basic space permeating everything. This should clear up the notion that awareness is located only in the body and mind. The concept of a body and mind appears within actual awareness. And the concept itself is empty and transparent. Look at it. It is as empty as air. It is as empty as the space in which it appears. This reveals that the thought that appears to locate awareness somewhere and the space in which it appears are inseparable. They are “not two.”
Questions and Answers about the text above
What can I do to recognize awareness?
In Living Realization, we are pointing to what you are (i.e., what is presently here) not what you can do now to achieve a goal later. The idea of doing something now to achieve a recognition later comes from within the time-bound story of self, which we will talk more about in later chapters. If some method or practice works to reveal present awareness as a vast, unmoving, unchanging, cognizing space prior to (and permeating) all appearances, then use the method or practice. But be clear that what is being revealed is a timeless essence. Awareness is simply what is awake right now.
The word “being” can be helpful here. Although some teachings make a distinction between “awareness” and “being,” Living Realization uses these words interchangeably. What do you have to do in order to be? Nothing. All that can happen is a recognition that being already is. That’s what you are. Being. You are not the concept “being” nor any other concept including a “person who is recognizing being.” Simply drop all concepts right now (including the concepts “being” and “awareness”) and notice an actual, non-conceptual sense of being that is already here. That is your real identity. Any idea that you have to do something to get to what is already here appears and disappears within actual being (i.e., within actual awareness). You are not anything that temporarily appears and disappears. The “I” thought and the notion, “I need to do something,” are both appearances that come and go in what is presently aware.
But shouldn’t I stop for moments throughout the day to “be present” or “rest as awareness?”
That’s a method or practice. There is nothing wrong with methods or practices. Use whatever works. But be clear that the notion that there is one “moment” different from another “moment” is an aspect of the realm of appearances. All appearances are temporary. This is why moments feel temporary. There really are no separate “moments.” These are movements within awareness. How do you know you are stopping for a particular “moment?” You know this through focusing on the thought “this moment” and paying attention only to what appears temporarily in that moment. Remember that appearances include thoughts, emotions, sensations, states, and experiences. Don’t look to appearances to define how you are doing or whether you are “present enough.” And don’t move to manipulate, analyze, or change any of the appearances. See that all appearances simply come and go.
Believing that you need to continue resting as awareness in the future tends to solidify the belief in the time-bound story of a “me.” This confuses present awareness with what is appearing inseparably within awareness. If this moment appears peaceful as you rest as awareness, the mind likes to take a snapshot of it and confuse what is appearing within awareness (i.e., a state of peacefulness) with awareness itself. It then tries to maintain that state, which means it is trying to carry it over to the next moment. This is what creates the sense of a person “living in time.”
The same is true for a moment in which frustration or non-peacefulness are appearing. As frustration appears, there is a tendency to look for some future moment when frustration is gone. This tends to solidify the idea that you haven’t “rested as awareness enough yet” or that you “aren’t enlightened yet.” And so the mind gets really busy back in the time-bound story of “me.” It rejects the present experience of frustration and goes looking for its future peaceful state. But both “peaceful” and “frustrating” are temporary appearances within present awareness. There is nowhere to go. There is nothing to escape from or find in the future. There is only ever present awareness and whatever is appearing inseparably within it.
Awareness is the unchanging present space within which all appearances come and go. Don’t confuse appearances that come and go with awareness itself, which does not come and go. The recognition of awareness, right now, is an end in and of itself. It ends the notion that there is some appearance within awareness (i.e., some thought, emotion, state, sensation, or experience) that you have to maintain, get back to, find, seek, or let go of. This recognition shines the light on the mistaken notion that there really are separate moments and that you have to continue “being present” or “resting” in each future moment in order to be what you already are. Again, use whatever method or practice works but be clear about the central message here.
The central message is this: Right now, recognize present awareness. Don’t move to manipulate any appearance within awareness. See that the appearance is not separate from awareness.