ENLIGHTENMENT OF THE VILLAGE IDIOT
ENLIGHTENMENT OF THE VILLAGE IDIOT
Written by Scott Benesi
So much has been said about these fast changing times and how they affect our personal lives. More and more people have been sharing their stories of quantum shifts in their personal lives. Ordinary people are claiming to have spontaneously awakened into the “enlightened” state previously reserved for the most pure and sincere. This state of being is also known by other names such as “the natural state”, “oneness consciousness”, or “the fifth dimension”, a state in which the “I” is freed from the conditioned mind, where the “I” is no longer found in any place in particular, residing in awareness itself. In this state there is no longer the need for anything to be different than the way it already is now.
I was just another guy blundering along through life wanting nothing more or less than the American dream. Blindly seeking for no one but myself, I was part of the “me” generation growing up in Southern California. It was a time where exploration of the self was flourishing. Spiritual masters from the Far East were sharing their precious wisdom with the west. Rock stars traveled with famous gurus. It was a buffet of new healing modalities and of new age seminars. From primal scream therapy to transcendental meditation, the more extreme the practice or philosophy, the harder it was for me to stay away from it.
During all of this, I trained in San Francisco to be a chef. I later owned and operated two restaurants, a bakery, had a beautiful daughter, and, like thirty percent of the American dream, experienced a horrific divorce. Through all of this my seeking continued.
Traveling through India, Africa, Nepal, and Peru, I made it my mission in life to sample it all. I was in love with the adventure, risk, and boundless quest of it all. I was an average student of many esoteric techniques, an expert at none. Without realizing it, after playing in the sand for thirty years, I had collected more than most seekers and began to consider myself to be a local authority on the subject of enlightenment. For all those years I had no idea that consciousness was seeking me with more veracity than I was seeking it.
Quite unexpectedly, in September of 2009, I began to have severe dizzy spells. This went on for weeks, followed by sensations of falling into an infinite void. During this time, I experienced energy shocks that were comparable to small bolts of lightning striking various parts of my body. Like quickenings, these shocks were often so forceful as to knock me from where I was sitting or standing. During this time, I was frequently visited by various spiritual teachers throughout the nights. Ordinary daily functions were difficult for me to accomplish. After about three weeks of this, that which I call “me” collapsed beyond repair. I awoke the next morning only to find that which I previously called “I” was to be found nowhere and yet everywhere. The ecstasy of oneness exploded from my being. I had fallen awake. I fell to my knees in awe that day and haven’t gotten up since. One quality of awakening is best described in the movie “THE MATRIX”. Neo awakens into a new world with unexpected disappointment. Morpheus reminds him that his offer was only for the truth and a life that is real.
Whereas previously I had defined myself as the conditioned mind, individual self, and only that, I now see that I am all and none of it. I am the awareness that it all passes through. In our natural state we are no longer imprisoned in the story of our life. We are now seen and experienced as life itself, without separation. For the awakened person, life is fully experienced as well as thought about.
What moves to the forefront of life are qualities like love, peace, joy, and the “I Am” presence. The “human experience” that is lived through the conditioned body-mind moves to the background of life. There is no longer the need to control, quiet, or banish the mind. It is seen as a precious tool, waiting in the background, eager to serve.
This shift to our natural state is often misrepresented as a permanent state of peace or joy. As it is impossible for anything to remain permanent, how could this be? Even a mountain of granite eventually fades away. I often use the example of Jesus Christ. To say Jesus was enlightened would be a gross understatement. His life was anything but an example of carefree living, spent in endless peace, joy, love, and happiness.
To say that the natural state is better or advancement in evolution would be ridiculous, as there is no central point in the universe in which to reference and measure this from. Even this ridiculous conclusion comes from our limited human conditioning. Beware of false teachers that claim such fantasies. All of these false teachings are born out of the compulsive need to have what is happening now be different than the way it already is. When this is seen and accepted, any state of consciousness or reality as we call it is seen simply as what is happening now, without judging it to be better, worse or more advanced. This is the end of seeking.
There is no hierarchy, no requirement for this shift back to our natural state. This is all a misunderstanding. I considered myself to be neither qualified nor “good enough”. What was once reserved for the most devout is now available to the ordinary person. There is no evidence supporting the idea that any spiritual, religious, or philosophical discipline leads to enlightenment anymore than selling shoes. It just happens. It’s happening to more and more people all around us. People are awakening to this truth exactly the way they already are. We don’t see it because we expect it to look different than the way it is.
We have become so sophisticated and dependant on our thinking that to consider what is so obvious would be an insult to our overly inflated false structure of self. What we are looking for sits underneath the ordinary person.
Most authorities are like small children crossing a river. Upon reaching the far bank, few have yet to discover that we have not left the opposite side. By remaining open and seeing with acceptance, the conditions of our planet, as in ourselves, it is possible to find peace here now, no matter what world we live in, no matter what the circumstances.
PEACE IS WHAT WE WANT
Enlightenment is often referred to as “the end of psychological suffering”. This suffering that I speak of comes from the avoidance of or the obsession with pain that is happening now, focusing more on the story surrounding it.
The story of what is happening now is an allegory to what is happening in this moment. It is merely a description of it. Our world needs to have stories that work together for it to operate smoothly - stories that are woven together, layer by layer. As children, we are taught the story of how the world works so that we can survive and lead productive lives. History, descriptions, definitions, and information that collaborate are a necessary tool in our daily lives. Getting our acts together; each generation striving for a better story is what our society defines as progress. Sadly, when separate from our source, all we have is a story about it, having forgotten what it feels like to have a real life, the feeling of aliveness in this moment.
What is obvious is that we go to war to protect our stories. Having a story is not the problem. These problems occur when our survival is invested in it.
Do you have a story or does your story have you? How do you react when your story is threatened? Who would you be without your story?
Since the beginning of recorded history, our civilization has us believing that by changing our story and beliefs, we may someday arrive at a place of peace and happiness. As witnessed by the results, we can conclude that this is far from the truth. In a contracted state, it is our conditioned nature to compulsively strive to change the outside world that is the movie passing by. Only after the shift occurs back to our natural state, can this compulsion to change what is happening now begin to dissolve and be let go of.
When our stories and beliefs are in conflict with the movie passing by, we will suffer.
What society calls happiness is when our stories and beliefs are in agreement with what is passing by. When we are in resistance to what is happening now, we will suffer.
Any possibility for peace begins with allowing whatever is happening now to be as it is. Inevitably, it is a question of weather or not I am at peace with my thoughts and beliefs. This includes my response to what is passing by. Peace is found when I am no longer at war with my response to you. This response is clearly seen as no more than the conditioned mind itself, carrying with it the agenda of the need for control, to be right, to survive, and never to have enough. This view can only be perceived when the “I” is freed from the mind.
There is nothing wrong with the ego or separate self. It is only when we define ourselves as that and only that when problems arise. We are like the universe that has forgotten its greatness and knows itself only as a separate star.
Most of us have had glimpses of this in times of surrender or, more commonly during a temporary exhaustion of the mind. Until we see from this view of no position, there is no possibility of freedom for the self.
Many books have been written in regard to “loving what is,” or “embracing what is”. This is a misunderstanding. You don’t have to like, love, agree, or embrace what is happening in this moment. It’s even simpler and more effortless than that.
A newborn infant doesn’t need to embrace or love anything. Their precious pristine openness to this moment is what we overlook. We overlook it because we can’t learn or acquire it. It is in this stillness of being that peace and freedom are born from.
We call this place of acceptance “BEING WITH WHAT IS” as opposed to resisting what is happening now. This is taking ultimate accountability for what is happening now.
Every healing modality such as yoga, meditation, psychotherapy, etc. is an attempt to accomplish this. Whether you are in conflict with a thought, belief, or an action of another, this is the door to freedom and peace. When we are “BEING WITH WHAT IS”, the concept of “me” and “mine” collapse. This is the greatest gift we can give to another.
“BEING WITH WHAT IS” is like gazing at a great piece of art for the first time- noticing its details and inquiring openly, innocently. It may be full of beauty or violence, but its greatness is undeniable and fully received. We become captured in this moment without the echo of the past or future. We are in service to this moment by simply letting it fully be.
We have been at war with the movie, believing it to be real. We war not because of what another says or does, but because we believe it to be more or less real than something else.
This discovery does not come from another technique- it cannot be taught or achieved. In our natural state, this is our response to life, where forgiveness is born out of non-doing.
We can’t possibly begin to discuss the kundalini and sexual energy called Shakti without first making a reference to the consequences of integrating this potent energy into our minds and bodies.
What is rarely spoken of in these times of great change is the painful physical and mental pain that often accompany integrating these quantum shifts. As basic science 101 tells us, all matter is accompanied by electromagnetic fields operating at different frequencies, all woven together in the universe. This means that our bodies are interwoven with the earth, which is interwoven with the planets and so on. This is what we call energy flow circulating through our bodies and all around us. These energy flows often take on different feelings, colors, and shapes depending on their frequency. Our bodies are like finely tuned crystals that are built to operate at a particular frequency in harmony with particular information. This energy, at certain frequencies, is encoded with particular thoughts and beliefs. When more energy than we are capable of integrating, at a different frequency, is released through our bodies and minds, we often experience nausea, dizziness, headaches, aches and pains. Along with these aches and pains are changes in thoughts and beliefs. Until we fully integrate these new beliefs and are able to hold this new level of energy, we often experience pain and confusion. By holding on to our old beliefs that conflict with the new movie passing by, we will continue to suffer. People often report that they feel like they’re going crazy during these times. This can be extreme and can go on for months. We tend to perceive this fundamental rule of change as being esoteric or imagined.
Back in the late 70’s, fellow seekers were talking about the initiations to be received from the spiritual masters coming over from India. Some of these spiritual masters were called “shaktipad gurus”- masters who would activate your kundalini energy at the base of your spine. Over time, the shakti would work its way up your spine, clearing your chakras, and finally exploding with ecstasy at the top of your head, bringing with it enlightenment.
Nature, in its genius, did a wonderful thing by designing our bodies so that this sexual energy called Shakti is channeled through our reproductive organs and out our groin area. This guarantees our species to propagate and survive. By re-channeling this energy up our spines and out the top of our heads, we get a much more accurate experience of sexual energy as an expression of creation and of the union in our universe that is constantly flowing through us.
The Kundalini is located from the base of the spine to the top of your head, compared to the heart that is located in your chest. Just as love feels a particular way, so does shakti.
Shakti feels very sexual, like how we feel when we are sexually turned on. This sexual energy in motion is what constitutes the “big bang” - our universal creator constantly flowing through us. Shakti is the expression of the universe constantly creating itself. Sexual energy is about union, not about orgasm.
Just as we can stimulate the feeling of love with certain exercises, focusing on the chest area, we can stimulate shakti with various yoga techniques, called Tantra or Kundalini yoga. Rather than expressing our sexual energy through our groin area, which is common for our culture, we can learn to channel it up the spine and out the top of our head.
OR.., you can take a shortcut by way of a shaktipad guru that fires it up for you.
In an act of grace, this is what happened to me.
At the age of twenty-four, I was living is San Francisco and apprenticing to be a chef. The next thing on the list of self exploration was to find a bonified shaktipad guru to get “zapped,” as my friends called it. The most famous guru performing these initiations at the time was Muktinanda. “Mukti,” as my friends called him, wasn’t in the area at the time, so I searched for a replacement.
Eventually, I read a small add in the paper describing the real deal from another spiritual master visiting from India. Cost for the initiation was thirty dollars. Off I drove in my VW bug to Santa Cruz to get zapped by the master and have my kundalini awakened. I arrived late at night and was welcomed into what looked like an Indian tepee. I was asked to sit up straight and make odd sounds with the other five people there. During this time, the shaktipad guru transmitted the magic juju with his presence. After about an hour the meeting ended and we all quietly departed. I was informed upon departing that it doesn’t always work with everybody. Without any noticeable change, I drove home disappointed.
The next day I started getting headaches. To make them go away I would sit up straight and focus my attention from the bottom of my spine to the top of my head. This was accompanied by relaxed open breathing. I noticed a mild sexual like ecstasy traveling from the base of my spine to the top of my head. Without practicing this meditation daily, I would get stomach cramps and headaches. My average horniness greatly increased as well. My selfless girlfriend at the time was to bear this sexual burden for the next few months.
The pain in my abdomen continued to get worse. Six months later I was admitted into the emergency ward, screaming with abdominal pain. Exploratory surgery was performed but nothing was found to be wrong. The next week I was released from the hospital, leaving the doctors puzzled without any answers.
Over the next twenty five years it continued to do its work. The energy so potent, that my headaches and abdominal pains continued but not as often. I spent a lot of time practicing different yoga and meditation techniques to help integrate the constantly expanding energy up my spine and out my head. As it cleared my heart center, the shakti added a quality of ecstasy to my love experience that I had not previously known. My regular way of breathing changed permanently to accommodate this new flow. As the years passed, it began to feel like a deep river, faintly flowing through the background of my life. A river of ecstasy laced with sparks of infinite creation.
Eventually, the experience became “ordinary” to me. This was the case with my kundalini. I assumed everybody felt the same way.
When my kundalini finally exploded with the rest of my awakening in September 2009, I felt like I was having an orgasm out my head, fingers and toes for days. I experienced oneness with creation itself. This final breakthrough of the kundalini was only one aspect of my awakening experience that lasted about four days. I can’t say that the kundalini contributed to my final return to the natural self, but I can be certain that it shaped the quality of it.
THE PAIN OF SEPARATION
In June, 2002, for no particular reason, I felt the need to cry. I couldn’t stop crying for six weeks and I didn’t know why.
Having practiced emotional release work for the past twenty years, I was surprised that there was still more coming to the surface. I was well acquainted with psychotherapy, inner child healing, and had trained in countless other modalities. By this point, I had traveled the world learning different yoga and meditation techniques, sat with spiritual masters, attended thousands of hours of various intensives and seminars, and had been witness to and participant in psychic phenomena that defies modern science. Growing up in California’s self improvement movement that began in the 1970’s, this was the norm for many. If for no other reason, we did it for the drama and excitement of it all. This thirty year inquiry I call my river trip.
When the need to cry arose, I would lie down on my back on the floor, closed my eyes, and begin to do a connected, circular breathing technique that I had practiced and taught for many years. Daily, for the first two weeks, I released emotional pain from my past like I had done hundreds of times before. Still, the sobbing continued. My chest continued to open, and I was falling into it. I couldn’t stop it from going deeper. Everyday, for an additional two weeks, beyond my personal pain, I was witness to, and had the experience of the collective pain on this planet, the pain of separation. As the sobbing continued, my chest kept opening up more and more to the experience of this intense pain. It would hurt so badly that I went to see a doctor to be sure I wasn’t having a heart attack. I had never experience such pain. With the energy that accompanied it, I compared it to sticking my finger in a light socket. It felt like someone was taking an ax to my chest to open it up more fully. I was witness to rape, war, and every type of human mutilation known to man as if it were happening to me. I later came to call this, “the horror”. Each scenario led to the doorstep of the separate self. I didn’t know it was possible to see and feel collective pain at this level of any kind. I know now that this is due to the law of oneness.
We don’t have to go anywhere to know the suffering on the opposite side of the planet. We are all part of this collective suffering. It is all one mind, one self.
I was a wreck, unable to hold any type of job at that time. I wouldn’t suggest this practice to anyone. It happened spontaneously for me.
For another two weeks the crying continued daily and I kept falling deeper and deeper until finally, one day, the bottom dropped out. I felt like I was being catapulted out into the galaxy.
Exhausted and surrendering beyond the pain of separation, I experienced a love that I had previously never known to exist. I couldn’t stop sobbing, falling into infinity, and crying tears of joy. Sobbing tears of joy continued daily for weeks. Upon leaving my home, I would wear large sunglasses so that my watery eyes would go unnoticed. My heart had broken wide open, never to be the same again.
Seeing from this view of love, it is clear why we remain here on this planet. Love is the gravity that keeps us from leaving. This infinite love is worth the wounding. This human body that we wear like a glove permits us to touch, see, hear, and taste this epic movie. I didn’t have the words to describe it then. What I now call “the heart breaking open”, wasn’t in any books that I could find at that time.
I later learned that the “heart breaking open” often accompanies a final collapse of the separate self and the walls of the mind that separate us. However, this was not the case for me. That final collapse was not to occur until years later. This collapse into the natural self often occurs in time of trauma, overwhelm or near death experience.
This collapse of the separate self that is accompanied by trauma is best described by a wonderful spiritual teacher named Isira. Upon being raped and close to being murdered, she describes a surrender that surpassed the horror of that moment. She goes on to describe a peace and love that extended to her persecutor in that moment of horror. Her life was transformed from that moment on.
It was years until I discovered the jewel hidden beyond love. I had missed the greatest gift that this painfully loving river trip had given me. My chest was permanently broken wide open but not for the purpose I had imagined. More subtle than the experience of having more love in my life was the effortless ability to remain open to this moment whether it is extremely painful or ecstatic. I no longer take this moment hostage, until life becomes more to my liking. Love or forgiveness is no longer required to be in the forefront of life for me to accept what may arise in the infinite possibility of this moment.
Most of the planet is blind to this open secret of love. Love is the door to the peace and freedom that we seek. Most are unaware to this open secret that in addition to the love that we are, we are that which is noticing love. As we expand our capacity to receive love, we must also expand our capacity to experience suffering and the pain of separation. This is the law of opposites. The hidden jewel that remains is a bigger capacity to remain effortlessly present. As we continue this practice, we expand our ability to offer peace and freedom to whatever is happening in this moment. There is no longer the demand for this moment to be any better than it already is. Weather it is love or hate passing by, peace and freedom are offered equally to both. In addition to the pain and suffering that exists in our world, to remain present, we must also have the capacity to fully receive qualities like ecstasy, love, beauty, and the joy that this infinite moment carries with it.
The two biggest fears that I find people most avoid is the pain of separation and the willingness to receive the ocean of love that surrounds us. By avoiding these opposites, we are not capable of remaining fully present. As we surrender to these qualities, there is no need to shield our hearts from the now. We have the capacity to remain present through the horrors and the ecstasy that take place on our planet. This is not only where healing of separation occurs, but also where peace can be extended to others.
There is no road that leads to enlightenment, but the road to the heart begins with an open mind. As this road is constantly cultivated, love is made more present. As the mind contracts in resistance to what is happening now, we cut off any chance of allowing qualities like love, freedom and peace to shine through. These qualities are more vital to us than the air that we breathe. Even in the most horrific moment, we can experience the peace and freedom that surpasses it. Until will build up enough presence in ourselves, surrendering through this pain often requires the support of others.
This pain of separation is not the same as psychological suffering. The pain of separation has often been called the hole that can never be filled. This is the wound that permeates every experience of our lives. For some, it is felt as a mild uneasiness. For others, it fuels their addictions, violence and insanity. Most people simply avoid this pain, only to give it more strength and become enslaved by it. You will never rest until you satisfy this basic need. You are seeking yourself. The ultimate avoidance is the avoidance of you and the pain that separates us.
Like my kundalini experience, my heart breaking open shaped my awakening. For the year that followed my awakening, all that appeared around me was love loving itself. As nothing eternally remains in the forefront of life, this faded. Like joy and ecstasy, love comes and goes from the forefront of life. What remains is a deeper peace, freedom, and awareness that love passes through. You are that awareness.
After this shift back to the natural self occurs, what happens then? Although the experience differs from person to person, depending on their past conditioning, what is discovered is that the awakened state is not an all or nothing kind of deal. Papaji, a famous saint, when asked from a disciple, if this experience deepens or fades, replied that what continues to fade is our compulsion to suffer. What expands is the freedom and peace that remains. It is described as a new beginning rather than an end result. Quite commonly, what remains at the forefront of life is a primary concern that we are at peace with our thoughts passing by in response to the movie of life. It becomes obvious that this is where peace begins. Paradoxically, we are no longer concerned with the outcome of life. Anger arising within ourselves or with others, chaos, and war, are found to have nothing to do with our problems of unrest and peace. Seeking to change the thoughts, beliefs, or actions of ourselves or of others is seen not only as ridiculous but more importantly damaging. This has yet to be discovered by even the smallest percentage of our population.
From the outside, our lives appear to look the same with all its ups and downs and drama. For most people, what I call the “human experience”, the majority of our attention is on the movie passing by with a smaller percentage of attention focusing on qualities like presence, oneness and consciousness. These percentages differ for everyone.
For no known reason, a reversal takes place for some people. I call this a return to the natural self. Now without any effort, what was previously in the background now moves to the forefront of life. We now define ourselves as awareness itself. As the self is freed from the mind, so are our natural senses. As the walls of the mind grow thinner and more transparent, our five senses often become intensified. In addition to these senses, life’s expressions of presence, peace, and joy move to the forefront of life. Often palpable, these three qualities are often sensed emanating from others.
Now life is very much “sensed” as well as thought about. It could be said that, before, I had a story of my life and, now, I have a life. It is as if life is living me. I often run into people claiming to be awakened but clearly lack this fundamental quality of oneness to life, this quality of aliveness.
This is not to suggest that life becomes happier or less problematic. The concerns are different. The pain and joy in life are much more intense. There will always be a dance between “meing” and being. This is not a problem. It becomes a problem when our meing continually dominates and overshadows our being.
Contrary to common belief, the outside of life remains the same. Actions, thoughts and beliefs remain unchanged. This is often very disappointing for many at first. The constantly changing circumstances in our lives are found to have nothing to do with our cause of suffering. What we have been working so hard to change all of our lives has nothing to do with the problem.
Clarity and wisdom are not inherent qualities of awakening. This is often misconceived. Only until we inquire into the person’s experience of their life within, and how they define themselves, can we begin to see that this shift has occurred. Simply put, you can’t tell by the way the person looks or acts.
I still have a voice in my head. What has changed is that the voice is often accompanied by a chorus of angels that are heard singing softly in the background. This life that I call Scott appears as chaotic as anyone else’s. In addition to this chaos, a blissful joy is felt running up the back of my spine, freeing itself from the top of my head like a spark that ignites the birth of another moment. This is the experience of creation that runs through us all. It is like the faint sound of a deep river running through the background of life.
Most of my days are like a continuous meditation that is open to this moments’ infinite possibilities. Life is more about a series of questions rather than any particular answer. I am the silent witness to the universe making love to itself.
What remains most constant is a sense of presence all around us that is infused with consciousness noticing itself. That which I call “I”, is found to reside in awareness itself. This awareness is what the story of Scott passes through. No longer is there a doer taking this moment hostage, demanding it to be different than the way it is. What has taken its place is a willing service to this moment’s infinite possibility. Although it is effortless, even during sleep, it is not this way for me all of the time. As this experience continues to expand, I continue to discover parts of me that are still imprisoned in the mind, carrying with it the same consequences as it does with any other person. To the extent that the beliefs that define us are false, we will continue to suffer. Due to the law of oneness, this freedom of self can only expand in unison with our collective consciousness here on this planet.
What I find disturbing from other teachers is that they suggest that they are in this state of constant rest 365 days of the year. This “misunderstanding” is conveniently left out of their presentations, perhaps fearing to be less popular or to be discomforting for their audience. I find this to be fundamentally dishonest. These fantasies of permanence create false expectations that contribute to suffering. We only have their books, videos or seminars to observe from. With the tools of the internet to inquire into their person lives, we find that this is far from the truth.
As I have mentioned before, enlightenment is different for everyone depending on your past conditioning. For so many years I was clueless to the impact that “the heart breaking open” and the esoteric kundalini would later have on my life. It was all very confusing to me at times. Things would spontaneously happen to me that I only read about in books that were reserved for the most disciplined and sincere. I was anything but that. Those two episodes were not to fully mature until the walls of the mind collapsed in September 2009. It wasn’t until a year later that I would discover how different my awakening was compared to others due to those two past experiences.
Wanting to share this with others, I started attending local meeting to discuss my wonderful breakthroughs. I soon discovered that most of us have already programmed ourselves with expectations of what enlightenment is suppose to look like.
The word “enlightenment” is a poor description that sensationalizes such a simple shift. When the “E” word was mentioned in meetings, the local spiritual experts would dispense verbal Zen spankings to those who dared declare it for themselves. The return to the natural self is often mistakenly seen as something we need to qualify for that is reserved for only a chosen few. Such an open invitation is often threatening to the separate self. When we deny others of that which we seek most, we deny this precious gift to ourselves.
This valuable lesson taught me that even for those that have fallen into the awakened state, where the “I” is claimed to be found in awareness itself, are not immune to arrogance and denial. To dissolve the minds toxic need to be right, I remind myself to laugh and play each day when ever possible.
What most people miss is that the river trip is no more real than the bank they departed from. You are the most incredible miracle as you are right now. What is just as miraculous is that we can be asleep to what is so obvious.
THANK YOU FOR CONDITIONING
To my amazement, when letting go finally happens, the world surrounding us doesn’t disappear or turn to chaos. Such a view I have yet to get off my knees for. Everything that we see around us is the conditioned mind. It can only exist in reaction to something else. Even the spark of consciousness cannot exist separate from that which it notices. Love and beauty cannot exist outside of this truth. The genius of conditioning is what is encoded into our genes and that which makes the seed of a tree grow into a tree and not a frog. This is what makes us walk, talk and even think as we do today. Conditioning carries with it the momentum of the past and the false hope of tomorrow. The momentum of conditioning is what we often call “destiny”.
If what we are is conditioning from the past, do we have freedom of choice? The possibility that we may be only a puppet without strings is to frightening for many to consider. Our illusion of control is much more comforting to the separate self.
It is common knowledge that the speed of thought moves so fast that we can’t possibly have chosen the thought we are having now. The previous thought and belief has already decided the thought we are now thinking. The possibility of having no choice is only a threat to the separate self, the mind seeking control, survival, and the need to know.
What was previously feared and rejected by the separate self is now welcomed into the heart of the natural self. There is no longer the need to control what may happen next when we are at peace with the way it is now. A great burden has been lifted.
Our fully conditioned bodies that we are born into gives to us is its ability to touch, smell, hear, taste, and see this reflection of the possibility that surrounds us. We are born into these bodies fully encoded with the knowledge of this world in particular so as to not confuse it for another dimension. We are like great pilots in this vehicle called the body, interpreting this reality through this great bio-computer. These bodies are but an extension of the great mind that surrounds us, wanting nothing more than to return to its role as a willing servant, retiring its burdened role as God.
What we see all around us is this great biocomputer at work that includes the movie of beauty and horrors taking place on our planet. From the beginning of time, it has conditioned itself to be what is has become today and carries with it the momentum of the past. Our bodies carry with it conditioned responses to what ever passes by. We often misunderstand this - judging it to be mean, angry or unloving. It is just our servant called conditioning. Like a long train of infinite length passing by, it carries with it all knowledge, thoughts, and beliefs in the universe. This is what I often call the mind train.
Due to the law of oneness, our actions and thoughts have always been and forever will be a conditioned expression from the universe in witch we live. This is not the problem. The problem is that our existing conditioning on our planet is dominated by an expression of fear and separation. In our denial to what is so, we create resistance to what is happening now. This resistance creates bondage and so guarantees the continued senseless suffering on our planet.
Most people are seen chained to the roof of their runaway mind trains as they pass by. Our trains cross paths during our busy day speaking the language of a train that has gone mad. Rarely do we step off the train to acknowledge another. Our lives on this planet consist primarily of “me and my” train speaking to each other from inside the prison bars of our separate mind trains. Our voice of being is muted by the noise that the mind train makes.
The door to freedom from the mind train is to first know that you are on one. The truth that we are, and forever will be, one with conditioning is not the problem. The problem arises when we lose our freedom to come and go from the train. This happens when our survival is invested in the illusion of control. As we wage war or condemn another only to preserve the survival of our beliefs, don’t hesitate to jump from the train. When we disengage at these critical moments, its like letting the air out of an over inflated balloon that we call our mind. It looses its momentum and control over us. As we step away from conditioning, only then can we fully appreciate the beauty that it holds.
IT’S ALL ABOUT THE PRESENCE
How can we begin to speak about something that is everywhere and yet is nowhere to be found? It doesn’t do anything, fix anybody, or make anything happen. Beyond that, it’s worthless. Even Neo in “The Matrix” got a red pill. I have nothing to show to my fellow seekers. This is my dilemma.
Who is going to pay $200 for my seminar when all we do for two days is sit in silence and gaze through the glass walls of an empty room from the outside looking in?
Perhaps a trained seal in a kiddy pool wasn’t such a bad idea after all?
After my “heart breaking open” experience, I noticed this “stuff” was everywhere and all around me most of the time. It reminded me of walking through fog that nobody could see. It saturated me and yet held me like a cloud in the sky. I couldn’t find where I stopped and where it began. At times it would grow more intense. At other times I could feel it emanating from others.
As it grew thicker, the world of mind seemed to fade away. Just as we submerge below the surface of the ocean, the world above remains unchanged. The concerns of the world would return only upon rising back to the surface. The thicker the fog of presence, the less attention we have on the world of mind.
What confused me for so long about this stuff was its quality of neutrality. Presence often goes unnoticed due to its subtle quality. It doesn’t feel loving, joyful, happy or sad. At the time, I didn’t know how to categorize it. It wasn’t until years later that I discovered it to be the “I Am” presence that we are all one with. We fail to notice this fundamental quality and most powerful healing force that all posses.
Certain people, places, objects, words, and sounds often emit more presence than others. As the walls of the mind become more transparent, presence shines through. We all have a unique expression of presence colored by our past conditioning.
Presence can expand or contract in intensity depending on what we focus on. By using the power of attention, we can evoke presence. When we are intimate and open to others, we evoke presence. When we speak of peace and freedom, we evoke presence. Love and inquiry are the best tools that I know to evoke presence. This inquiry can take the form of any religion, science, or spirituality. Love and inquiry are interdependent of each other as they are the natural flow of life. Love grows stale without the humility of open inquiry to feed it. A newborn child is the perfect example of this open inquiry, this “world of wonder”. Their pureness of presence is undeniable.
Like the faint melody in a crowded ballroom, we can increase the sweet melody of presence by using the power of attention and focus. As presence increases, the sounds of the mind grow fainter, almost inaudible. When the mind is needed to perform our daily tasks, we utilize our tools of focus and intention, calling the mind fourth again likes a willing servant.
Presence is what we are seeking. It waits patiently like a pristine mountain stream, asking for nothing more than to satisfy our thirst. Standing close by in calm reflection, this is you that I see. You may find yourself sitting on a park bench in town square looking ordinary, with nowhere to go and nothing spectacular to say, open to the wonder of now. A hidden blessing for all that surrounds you; a beacon of presence that acts as a filter to the insanity that often surrounds us.
Once you return back to your natural self which is awareness itself, you effortlessly have the ability to hold this infinite moment. Your identity now resides in the awareness that all things pass through. This is the greatest healing gift. This is what is meant by the term,” In Service To This Moment”. There is no technique involved here-no doer. This selfless service receives no salary or acknowledgement on this earth dimension. Like ripples in a pond, your healing presence is felt throughout the universe.
Have you ever considered that there may be a civilization in the universe that might not have emotions? I’m talking about fear, anger, and grief. Our human nature is unique in this way. It adds color and drama to the movie passing by. Emotions are the body’s expression of the quality of our minds. Like the quality of our collective mind, our collective emotional body has the same collective quality. This is why psychotherapy and emotional release type of modalities do not bring us lasting fulfillment. It is a bottomless pit of emotional pain on our planet. We treat only the individual self. We miss the hidden value of these healing modalities. The more we become friends with our collective emotional pain body, the greater our ability to remain present in this moment, offering our healing presence of peace to all that surround us.
When neglected, our personal and collective emotional body can become knotted up, blocked, and toxic. Most of us have had moments when our response to what is passing by seems inappropriate and over inflated. This keeps us from remaining present. We are like a puppet, controlled by the past. This happens when we are looking through the window of survival, accompanied by a story that is false. These knots of neglected unconsciousness are what keep us anchored to the mind. These knots are usually accompanied by a misunderstanding in the form of a story that seeks correction. We infuse it with an inappropriate amount of energy by utilizing our power of attention. It then seems bigger and more real than it actually is. For example: “The sun is going down”, compared to, “Oh my god, the sun is going down”!
By utilizing the power of attention, we overly empower a belief that’s untrue, infusing it with more significance than it represents. When our beliefs are not in agreement with what is passing by, we suffer.
There is no need to interview every upset that passes by. Only the ones that keep returning to our doorstep, keeping us from being present, seeking the resolve required to return to the source. We are only concerned with neglected knots of overcharged emotional stories that keep us imprisoned in the past. These frozen episodes are often in the form of abuse, loss and guilt, all stemming from the need to survive. We often inherit these qualities at birth. This is called psycho-genetics.
People are often seen with a cloud of neglected emotional pain surrounding them. Often in denial, this fuels their actions and determines their decisions, keeping them enslaved, without any possibility of accessing life that the now holds.
By remaining present when these upsets appear, we release the energy of the over inflated beliefs and the emotion that accompany them.
Without presence these knots remain neglected, unresolved and toxic. All that is required for healing is to remain present when these “episodes” pass by. Psychotherapy, yoga, meditation, and personal growth seminars are all forms of inquiry, helping to dissolve these knots and build presence. Once enough presence is acquired, these modalities are needed less as we acquire the presence needed to heal ourselves and others.
As we return to the “nature state”, our presence expands by quantum leaps. Healing begins to occur without any effort for ourselves and to those that surround us. This is an ongoing process. Everything doesn’t magically heal all at once.
For those who are thinking that life becomes easier when you have plenty of presence built up, guess again. This is often a big surprise to those that have newly fallen awake. You are the healers of our planet. Wounds from this planet seeking resolve will be attracted to you for healing. Remember, there is no “me” and “mine”. We are one with our planetary consciousness. This is selfless work that often goes unnoticed or acknowledged in our society.
Having emotions are not the problem. You can be screaming and crying and still remain present, watching the movie of yourself and others passing by. When we remain present to what is passing by, all judgment is suspended. All that remains is our blessing to let it be the way it is.
Until we acquire adequate presence on our planet, our neglected emotional wounds will continue to go unconscious; continuing to reap pain and destruction upon our precious planet.
THE ILLUSION OF ME AND MINE
We are all an important part and a unique expression of our human condition. The movie that passes by is infused with thoughts, feelings and emotions. No one is immune to this just as nobody on this planet is immune to the weather that passes overhead. This is what makes up being human here on planet earth. We all share the same movie. This is the expression of the quality of our human consciousness passing by. It is our response to the movie that matters. Many of us believe that someday we will arrive at a place where the movie will be absent of all pain. Just as joy and ecstasy are an expression of our human nature, so are qualities like depression and migraine headaches. Like the weather passing over a forest, when clouds pass over it, the tree doesn’t seek therapy saying that it’s about me or it’s my problem.
Our collective consciousness has us believing that when what is passing by is favorable, such as abundance or good health, we are more evolved or enlightened than that which is without. We believe that we are more enlightened and advanced when our story and beliefs are in agreement with what is passing by. The quality of our consciousness is commonly measured by our exterior circumstances. Our common belief toward abundance and poverty is no more personal than the weather passing by.
The concept of “me and mine” can be compared to the concept of “ownership”. There is no ownership to be claimed because there is no owner to be found.
This concept of “me and mine” or “you and yours” is one of the most destructive underlying beliefs on our planet. Toxic beliefs like this are what bind us to the mind. When looking through the window of “me and mine”, we automatically separate our selves and others from our experience of oneness. The concept of karma can only be conceived of when looking through the window of “me and mine”.
Instead of noticing the weather passing by, we notice only the individual cloud passing overhead. We then surround it with the story of lack or greatness.
This moment that is sometime already painful, now carries the added burden of it being all about “me” and that it is all “mine” or it is all about “you” and it is all “yours”.
Just as the clouds can’t possibly cover everyone on the planet at the same time, pain and suffering are indiscriminately scattered across our planet. The universe doesn’t carry a personal agenda. The forest doesn’t take it personally when it continues to rain in one area and remains sunny in another. It doesn’t judge one to be better, more advanced, or different than another.
Because of our obsession with the weather, we fail to notice the sky.
By regarding our bodies as “me” or “mine”, we create suffering.
Our relationships with our bodies are like relationships with our children.
Like loving parents, we can only offer loving support to our bodies in regard to diet, exercise, and shelter. Our bodies will follow their own paths that are often contrary to our allusion of control over them.
What determines our response to the movie is the amount of presence that we have acquired in combination with consciousness that is no longer imprisoned in the mind. As we return to our natural state, where our identity resides in awareness, we dissolve this toxic belief. As awareness, we do not recognize the concept of “me or mine”.
The separate self is only capable of seeing a world of separate individuals.
The view from oneness cannot be conceived of by the separate self. Our identity is defined from separation and not from the whole. This fundamental collective belief is false and is the bases for much suffering. This defines the quality of our consciousness here on our planet. As we return to oneness, the quality of the whole is what defines us. Our return to oneness dissolves our senseless seeking that perpetuates our suffering.
As oneness knows no distance, love is born.
Only until we build up enough collective presence and awakened consciousness on our planet, will we be capable of remaining present even through the most extreme horror. Only then can we begin to conceive of any permanent healing.
This illusion of me and mine applies to the awakened person as well. This is why people that have returned to their natural self can’t possibly remain present through every earthly upset. Until enough presence is built up on this planet, even the most enlightened person will often be pulled into unconsciousness and separation when they themselves are faced with hardships such as, abuse, cancer, or loss.
Much suffering is created on our planet due to the false belief that as individuals, we may someday achieve a permanent state of loving peace. The false concept of a “pure” person that is free from negativity can only be conceived of as a product of attainment or evolution. This false belief is the bases for mass genocide practiced on our planet.
Due to the law of opposites, there must exist individuals on our planet that experience peace and love 24-7 just as there must also exist individuals that conceive only of harmful thoughts and acts. We then create a story around this in the form of hierarchy, evolution, attainment, and permanence. When we dismiss these fantasies and view from oneness, we see clearly that it is impossible for a single individual to attain lasting peace and love the way we perceive it to be from the separate self.
This news is threatening to the survival of the separate self. This shatters all hope of achieving any permanent happiness separate from that which defines our planetary consciousness today. It is common practice for the separate self to move away and attempt to destroy toxic negativity in order to move closer to the positive. Viewed from oneness, this is not conceivable. Oneness knows no distance. Oneness is freed from this senseless destructive seeking. This false belief creates much suffering, which are the bases for mass destruction on our planet. As long as murderers and rapists continue to exist on our planet, we shall always remain a part of that quality of consciousness. This obsession with perfection must be dropped in order to discover the underlying problem. The problem is not that fear and negativity exists. The problem is that our planet is dominated by it.
As we return to oneness, the quality of the whole is what defines us. As we surrender to this truth, we are freed from this fear based belief that compulsively drives us to be better than who we already are. We have yet to discover our core presence of joy, love, and peace that will never be touched by our personalities or circumstances. As we discover what already exists at the core of our being, fear and negativity fall away. The love and oneness that knows no distance remain in the forefront of our lives. Like a shield and a sword of light, we illuminate this moment for the lost and suffering.
THE POWER OF ATTENTION
Reality could be described as what is happening in the forefront now.
It could also be said that reality is a “view”. That is to say what we see, hear, smell, touch, feel, or experience in any way shape or form like a holographic movie passing by.
What we call reality is nothing more than consciousness focusing through our conditioned beliefs.
The human “view” or experience that we share on this planet is viewed and experienced through our physical bodies with the conditioning that is encoded in it. We are born into these bodies that are fully encoded with the knowledge of this world so as to not confuse it for another dimension.
Viewing from our physical bodies is what brings this human reality to the forefront and focus. This is what we call reality. It could be said that part of the bi-product of our human expression is that of separation, fear, and survival, identified as the false individual self, the voice in our head, and a slave to the conditioned mind.
Thoughts will always be passing by into infinity. It is the power of attention that brings them to the forefront to what we call reality. Our beliefs are nothing more than thoughts spun together into a story. None of this would occur without our focus of consciousness passing through them. As the walls of the mind become thinner, what comes to the forefront is our presence and awakened consciousness that surrounds and permeates us. Using the power of attention, we can evoke presence and expand consciousness.
We have all been inside a room filled with people and have noticed a difference in atmosphere depending on what the focus of attention is on. Our experience is different when we put our attention on a beautiful sunset verses a T.V. commercial. Our experience is magnified even more when we focus on the same belief, or object together as a group. In contrast, when we focus our minds on the needs to survive and control, we block out presence and our awareness to consciousness.
Certain sounds, objects, and words evoke presence and expand consciousness. Certain people emit more presence than others that often don’t meet our expectations of what they are supposed to look, act, or sound like. This is possible only when their attention is effortlessly focused on presence and consciousness, setting a priority above their religious, spiritual, or personal beliefs. Attention to peace and freedom remain in the forefront of their lives, leaving their mind in the background.
In September 2009, something in me got broken. Consciousness known as Scott is now capable of viewing life only from the view of oneness. I am not suggesting that this is a progression or advancement of any kind. I literally am no longer capable of seriously believing in concepts like “me and mine”, “you and yours”, separateness, or time and space. I can only begin to understand these concepts when I view them from the window of the individual, separate self, and the false belief that there is a central point in the universe in which to measure from. It is then seen only as a story of fantasy, adventure, and seeking. This bio-computer called Scott crashed and when rebooted no longer carries with it the hardware needed to view this world as before. Attention is now focused through the lens of oneness, thus, reality has changed for me.
What is impossible to go forever unnoticed is that which is so abundantly available now. This is not some far away fantasy that we may someday achieve. We are eternally immersed in this ocean of consciousness that wants only to know itself, rejoicing in its oneness. What the separate self fears most is to let go and take in this life giving nectar. We are being asked to dive deeply into ourselves until our lungs burst from the exhaustion of our daily suffering. As we surrender, we take in what we have feared most. Drowning in this ocean of love, we fill ourselves with the peace and freedom that we have been starving for.
This death of the individual self is the wall that separates us. This is what is meant by falling awake into our natural selves.
THE GREAT PARADOX
As the walls of the mind collapse, it becomes obvious that we are everything and nothing. This void of not knowing, that the mind compulsively avoids, is welcomed by the natural self.
There are many paradoxes in life. This is the most difficult to accept. We are being asked to “fully receive” and then “let it all go” to the most extreme. If you are living on planet earth, this is your path. You will not give up your search until you are fully satisfied. You must be willing to jump in naked with your heart fully open. We will never be satisfied with an imitation of life.
Upon fully receiving what is happening now, we must then learn to fully let it go as it passes. That includes what is being written here. What has been written so far is no more or less real than the fundamentalist Christian evangelist enlisting lost souls. All that we see hear, touch, and think is an allegory and a myth of what is happening now. The hard truth that throws us to the ground suggests that everything exists here and now and at the same time nothing is real. Any physicist could suggest the same thing. Remember that what we claim as reality is only a function of focusing our awareness through our beliefs, thus bringing it to the forefront of the here and now. What makes love so beautiful doesn’t make it any more real than anything else passing by. It’s all a mirage, but it’s a real mirage. The menu is not the food. We are like dogs barking at each other in agreement with the illusion that it means something. The phrase “nothing is to be believed or denied” describes this paradox well. This truth comes from the discovery that who we are is no-thing and yet everything.
This great paradox is vital to understand because we continue to wage war on our planet and ourselves for what we believe to be more real than something else. Few are friends with this truth, as it leads to nowhere, with nothing to know, nobody to know it, and nothing to get. In Zen it’s been called “the ultimate disappointment”. When asked, does enlightenment exist, the great Ramana Maharshi responded,” yes, but can you handle it”, stressing how uncomfortable this part of awakening can be. There is nothing warm and fluffy about this truth. This threatens to collapse the walls of who we pretend to be. We often harm ourselves and others protecting these walls. This is what accompanies the end of seeking.
Deep in the stillness where we come together as one, the stillness is all there is. This truth is very threatening to the separate self. What is most feared by the ego is welcomed by our natural self. This void of nothingness is where the silence of peace and freedom reside. Only peace and freedom are immune to this rule. When we let go of peace and freedom, our experience of peace and freedom expands.
No matter what belief system we are coming from, practicing this truth brings with it humility. Even those claiming enlightenment are not immune to arrogance and denial. Our mind is a “right” machine. In its resistance to be wrong, suffering is created.
What is true on this planet is that we go to war for what we believe to be more real than something else. We often make collective agreements to beliefs that are not true. We agree to uphold them with unspoken vows and become crucified even to suggest that we break these toxic agreements. I call this “loyalty to my sacred truth”. When we discover that nothing is real, we surrender our need to be right, survive, and to defend our illusion of “me and mine”. There is nothing more beautiful than to see a person letting go of their most precious jewel called “my truth”. This is the ultimate sacrifice. Through this door we are witness to infinite peace and freedom.
What I call enlightenment is a door to come and go from the imprisonment of the self when my resistance to it becomes painful. I call it a door because to say that we are in any way separate from conditioning would be false. What is lacking on our planet is the ability to come and go from our resistance to conditioning when it becomes painful.
As seen from great teachers such as U.G. Krishnamurti, they are correct in saying that enlightenment, love, freedom, joy, and freedom for the self does not actually exist. This is what I would call the extreme truth. Remaining stuck in this point of view lacks the balance required that is needed to fall in love and feel compassion for another. Seeing only from this view alone, that nothing is real, creates suffering. When obsessing on this extreme truth, we lack the ability to fully receive qualities like beauty, love, ecstasy, and the ability to fully receive others. “You must fully receive me to know me.” We have to momentarily let ourselves get lost in the dream to experience love and beauty. We have to forget for a moment that it’s not real to let it happen. Everything ever known or ever to be known is like poetry. We can only point and witness. Poetry comes from being lost in the movie. The problem is not that we go unconscious. The problem is that we can’t find the door to freedom when we need to.
Never hesitate to play the village idiot. Never hesitate to hold a hand out to another, knowing full well that help is not needed. Throw away the title of enlightenment, cry out for the loss of another, knowing that nobody is born or dies. Above all else, be a fool for love whenever possible. You may never get another chance to dance to this music again.
THE PAIN BODY
A year and a half after my awakening, I was puzzled by my occasional participation in hurtful thoughts and actions. Even though I was seeing it all as the silent witness, residing in awareness, I was unclear about its origin. Being with what is as the silent witness wasn’t cutting it anymore. A fundamental part of the puzzle was missing. I was so absorbed in the intoxication of this Holly moment that I was unaware that my passive, naive objectivity was contributing to this negativity. I began to see dark clouds around people and negative forces feeding on the weak and unconscious. As our personal toxic beliefs and painful emotions continue to feed upon themselves, we fail to acknowledge that the collective fear based consciousness of our planet feeds off of this food source as well. This shadow of the ego is often called the pain body. The negative life force of the pain body is what dominates our planet today. Just as love is a living life force, the life force of negativity that is fear based wants only to control and survive. This negative life force can take form or remain formless.
A common misunderstanding of those that have awakened into oneness is the belief that if we stop focusing on that which is unreal, it will eventually cease to exist. This may be true for the future but allows for much harm to ourselves and others to continue in this present moment. This can arise from becoming overly fixated on beliefs such as “eternal love is all there is, nobody really dies anyway, and this is all an allusion”. These beings that often devote their entire inner lives to peace often deny themselves of any outward physical action even in the name of love. This behavior is based on the naive belief that a destructive presence can never exist in the present moment. Due to the law of opposites, this cannot be so. One cannot exist without the other. Just as the natural self moves toward center and peace, the separate self’s agenda is to move away from center- contributing to unconsciousness and suffering. Both are living forces in our lives. Both exist in form and formlessness.
This place of passive observation and denial is what allows the pain body to flourish. This denial is what keeps the awakened person imprisoned in its hypnoses and taking no action. They too remain subtly imprisoned by the pain body practicing denial.
The story of the Samurai
Before the Samurai warriors were carrying swords and bows, they were monks, meditating on loving kindness, wanting nothing more than to love one another and to live in peace. The village across the river would cross over into their domain to rape and pillage as they pleased. The monks were easy prey for this negative force [the pain body] due to their passive nature. Eventually the monks learned that by taking no outward action, they were in fact contributing to the suffering and unconsciously, inviting it into their lives.
What made the Samurai different from this negative force was that their outward actions were an expression of their right to live in peace and a responsibility to protecting the weak, and innocent. Their fighting skills were used as a defensive weapon only. Their daily meditation practices of peace and freedom were the foundation and a prerequisite for their legendary fighting skills.
With a warrior’s heart, make your stand for love and peace. Make your stand with whatever you have available to you in the present moment. You must be willing to commit everything and risk it all to claim the most precious jewel called you. Nobody else can do this for you. Only you can do this for yourself.
I was barely familiar with what is referred to as the Merkaba Field. I couldn’t relate to the esoteric, biblical language used to describe it. I considered it a myth that was unrelated to the lives of ordinary people.
With the assistance of light beings that continued to help me, I was visited one evening by a being of a great Holly presence. For the next two weeks I was downloaded with information that carried with it a powerful quality of energy that I never knew existed. People at work could feel it around me and would comment. During this time, massive blocks of toxic beliefs and negativity [the pain body] released their hold on me and exited my body. My body felt completely different. I felt more relaxed than I had ever felt before, like I was floating around in a bubble. Within this bubble, fear and destructive thoughts were dissolving effortlessly. My entire being felt stabilized and balanced. Without any effort on my part I began to express a much deeper level of loving kindness to those around me. My psychic abilities tripled and it was then that I began performing energy healings on others. One month later I was visited by another group of light beings that told me that my Merkaba Field had been activated during that time.
I now need to take a moment to explain what all of this means.
Our consciousness here on planet earth could be defined as a fear and ego based dimension. The frequency of our consciousness is what gives fertile ground to destructive thoughts and behavior. This does not exclude the most enlightened. We cannot swim in the ocean without getting wet.
The formation of the energy field that surrounds our bodies is identical to that of an atom. Just as the particles spinning around the atom determines the quality of its structure, so does the quality our personal “spin” that forms the holograph of our reality. Our energetic fields flow through our bodies and around us in a circular manner that forms a sphere. The quality of our “spin” is what allows toxic beliefs and actions to dissolve or flourish within it. As science continues to make fundamental discoveries regarding the atom, we have yet to establish this relationship to the quality of our consciousness that forms the holograph of our lives and defines our dimension here on planet earth. What is often called the Merkaba Field is simply referring to the quality and frequency of our “spin”. Its principles are identical to that of an atom.
The Merkaba is often depicted as a tetrahedron with the form of a human body sitting or standing inside of it. This can be confusing do to the spherical pattern that the Merkaba Field forms. Since the universe flows in infinite directions simultaneously, the tetrahedron must spin on access in a multidirectional pattern forming a sphere.
Everything has a Merkaba field surrounding it, to the smallest particle, to the largest planet. Just as with most people on this planet whose chakras are clogged and not spinning effectively, the Merkaba field that surrounds most people is either spinning very slowly or is seriously out of tune. When our Merkaba spins too slowly or out of tune, we fall prey to the negative forces, causing illness, unconsciousness, and endless suffering.
The sphere that our Merkaba forms is in contact with other spheres like gears in a finely tuned clock. The quality and quantity of our “spin” helps to turn others just as others help to turn ours. This symphony of infinite movement throughout the universe has no starting or stopping point. This is symbolized by a fundamental geometric pattern called the Flower of Life. The quality of our “spin” determines our physical health and quality of our consciousness.
The name “Merkaba” is the name given to the frequency of your spin. The term “activating the Merkaba” is when a particular frequency is initiated upon the energetic field of the body. This sustained frequency dissolves negativity and the pain body.
It is no longer necessary to practice complicated meditations to activate or tune your Merkaba. By letting go and correcting false beliefs in the company of someone whose Merkaba is already active will stimulate another’s Merkaba to “activate” and your spin to increase. By cleansing ourselves of toxic beliefs, we increase our Merkaba’s spin and heighten our frequency. By increasing the frequency of our electromagnetic field surrounding us, we can begin to create a dimension around us that is no longer fertile ground for fear, destructive thoughts, and physical illness. The increase of our vibration is what spins off that which is not of us. What I am suggesting here is how realistic it is to undergo a radical planetary dimensional shift in consciousness without showing any immediate outward signs of change in appearances.
Everyone’s Merkaba is spinning to some degree. If it were not spinning at all, you would not be able to remain alive. With our attention now effortlessly awake to this natural flow, our Merkaba [spin] now becomes another tangible expression of life flowing through us. With the increase in the spin of our Merkaba, we create an atmosphere that greatly inhibits the expression of toxic beliefs in this present moment. By engaging our Merkaba with love, we increase its ability to heal ourselves and others exponentially.
Even with my Merkaba Field activated, I still discover harmful thoughts and beliefs that I fall prey to. Due to the law of oneness this will continue until we collectively increase our “spin” on our planet. Until then we will remain a fertile ground for fear and suffering. The first step in dissolving the pain body is to acknowledge its existence. We must then allow it to be as it is. It is in this place of surrendered acceptance that action can begin to take place. From here, love is given legs and a voice to speak from.
I WALK AMONG GODS
That people remain here continues to bring tears to my eyes
To remain here knowing full well the consequences of your choice
Seeing the bondage, separation, suffering, and horrors that you endure
There is nobody out there keeping you here, yet you remain
Love is the gravity that holds you
Saints have spoken of the devotion required for any possibility of peace
I walk with GODS masquerading as plumbers and housewives
I wake up every morning knowing that I get to walk amongst you
This view from love is clearly worth the wounding
To spend the rest of eternity on my knees in gratitude
The blade of grass defines itself by the quality of the field. If the field is polluted, some blades of grass may be seen as a brownish-yellow in color. Others may appear to remain a healthy bright green. Unlike human nature, the blade of grass does not see itself as a separate individual. It does not create a story of lack, hierarchy, or attainment separate from the field. Both the yellow and the green blade of grass define themselves equally as the field they abide in.
THE PATH TO FREEDOM AND PEACE
Inquiry begins with an open mind.
An open mind leads to an open heart. An open heart leads to the service of now.
Service to now is the door to freedom and peace.
Written by Scott Benesi