My experiences.. or the lack thereof
Personal experiences.. well what i can say is that i didn't really have one big bang in which everything became clear all of a sudden, nor did i have amazing mystical trips or other special effects.
Whatever it is that happened so far seems to be a gradual process, which seems to be mental for a big part. I love to meditate sometimes, and seem to loose my 'self' in it sometimes.. there can be moments of clarity, even some oneness, when what used to be a clear 'me' with a definite body and whatnot becomes just a cloud of consciousness without clear defined borders, so to speak.
While those are really nice experiences, they always wear off pretty fast once you move out of the meditation session, and soon 'real life' hits me in the face again.. lol. Still, at the same time, it's nice and handy to know what's happening in my mind... how it works and why it does the things it does. It's actually pretty interesting to look at hwo it works.. and how predictable it really is.
IOn the meanwhile i don't knwo what's next. Maybe that 'big bang' will come one day.. maybe it won't.. maybe it's not meant to happen, maybe all that will ever happen is happening already, and it doesn't matter one bit how that which i call 'I' handles it.