Scott Kiloby 4th Q&A Responses
If nothing exists as an independent thing, how can we talk about anything? I seem to enjoy being in the world, apparently doing things, and enjoying life. Is this recognition you speak of, the end of my life as I knew it?
When you say "how can we talk about anything," take a closer look. What you are calling "things" are really thoughts. Is there any way to know of a thing outside of the thought that arises to describe it?
Awareness is like the pure space in which all thoughts appear and disappear. In knowing yourself as that space, you begin to see that every thought is inseparable from that space. Thoughts cannot destroy that space. They cannot bring you closer to what you are--awareness. And they cannot pull you away from what you are--awareness. Thoughts are just appearing within the present awareness that is looking right here and now. That awareness is changeless. It doesn't come and go. Only thoughts come and go and seem to change.
In a conventional sense, life and discussion goes on just as it always has. We enjoy the company of each other. We enjoy our families and our lives. We help each other, discuss politics, and do whatever we have always done. The notion of "me," "you," "politics" and "world" are thoughts, yes. To say that there are no separately existing things is not to deny thought. Thoughts continue to appear, but when they are seen as just thoughts, and not an objective reality, there is a natural relaxation. There is no more identification with thoughts, no emphasizing thoughts as "truth."
This whole message of Living Realization is about recognizing inseparability, not destroying language or communication. This knowing provides a sense of peace, love, joy, and well-being that is unconditional. It is not based on any appearance yet it permeates every appearance. It is every appearance. Therefore, it is every thought.
This well-being is not based on whether we are speaking or not speaking, feeling or not feeling, thinking or not thinking. Just like space, awareness is ever present. It certainly doesn't preclude using words or talking. Those who think that the recognition of awareness precludes using language are confusing viewpoints about awareness with awareness itself. When you cling only to a viewpoint about awareness, you make it into an idea. Then you try to fit all other ideas into that idea or make sure all ideas are in agreement with the main idea you have about awareness. This is born from the frustration of not seeing where words like "awareness" are pointing. Let me give you an example: If I leave the pointer "there is only awareness" only on the intellect, the mind will believe that means that you should get rid of all appearances within awareness so that you can be closer to pure awareness without thoughts. This misunderstands what awareness is. It is the space through which all thoughts come and go. That space has no agenda to be rid of thoughts.
The recognition of awareness certainly does not take away the sense of joy of being. In fact, it reveals that the self that was living in time, burdened by time and separation, is not your real self. Your real identity is present awareness. This places you right where you have always been--in the here and now--where all enjoyment of life takes place, but without the story of time leading you to believe that you must get somewhere else or that the past defines you in some way. This frees you up to live in and as the joy of just being. In this seeing, you realize that what you have called a "world" that "you" enjoy being in is not a separate world "out there" at all. Awareness is the world and the world is awareness. The separation is seen through. What appears as a separate world is really a set of concepts that appear and disappear within what you are--awareness. There is great joy and freedom in that seeing.
Is this the end of your life as you know it? It is the end of believing that you have a separate life, that you can separate yourself from what you see. It's the end of lodging your identity in a time-bound story and in the body. This is an opening into what you really are and that is where uncaused and unconditional joy and freedom are.